Father Wilberforce by Yoav J. Tenembaum
"Father Wilberforce!" a young female's voice was heard outside Father Wilberforce's home.
Father Wilberforce looked around, as though he had heard the voice inside his modest living room. A few seconds elapsed before he directed his eyes towards the window. He then saw a young woman waving her hand to draw his attention. Father Wilberforce paced quickly towards the door. He opened it and asked the young woman to come in.
"Father Wilberforce," she said in a rather tense voice, "I am sorry to bother you, but I need to ask you to come with me."
"Dear Alice… Please, sit down." He pointed towards an armchair nearby.
"Thank you, Father. I would rather not, if you don't mind. I am here to ask you a favour."
"A favour?"
"Well, you see…My sister is not well."
"Please, tell me what's wrong," Father Wilberforce said in a low and soft voice so as to assuage her visible tense state of mind.
"My sister has been quite sad in recent weeks. Her situation deteriorated until she would hardly come out of her bedroom. She doesn't want to see anyone, except me; not even my parents….She hardly eats."
Father Wilberforce placed the book he had been reading on a chair.
"Are you sure you don't want to sit down?"
"No, thank you, Father. I am worried. We all are. I thought you might be able to help. Please, come with me to see her! Would you mind, Father?"
"Give me a minute, Alice," Father Wilberforce said as he rushed to his bedroom to take his coat.
Father Wilberforce was well-known and very much liked by the people in his parish. He was endowed with a subtle sense of humour and a singular ability to listen to people with empathy without losing a certain sense of detachment to assess matters objectively when necessary. A friendly if rather reclusive person, Father Wilberforce was in his late-forties. He was particularly liked by children, who were able to elicit from him a rather spontaneously childish response, quite in contrast to his usual self-controlled demeanour.
Alice and Father Wilberforce arrived quickly. They went in. Alice's parents welcomed them.
"Thank you so much for coming, Father!" said the mother as she proceeded to lead Father Wilberforce up the stairs to Deborah's bedroom.
Deborah, Alice's elder sister, was in her early twenties. She was beautiful and highly intelligent. She was known to be a friendly and humorous person. Now, in her bed, she seemed to be a shadow of herself.
"Would you excuse me for a minute, Father?" said the mother as she went into Deborah's bedroom.
After a while she came out. "She doesn't want to see anyone. She hardly speaks," explained the visibly worried mother.
Alice intervened. "I spoke with my sister before I went to see you, father. You may go in. Please, Father. I beg you: Go in…"
Father Wilberforce opened the door delicately and entered hesitatingly into Deborah's bedroom. He sat down on a chair right next to Deborah's bed. He took her right hand and held it softly. Father Wilberforce sat down for a while without uttering a word. Then, all of a sudden, Deborah looked at him with a deeply melancholic gaze and mentioned his name, without his ecclesiastic title. He smiled at her.
"Dear Deborah…" Father Wilberforce started a sentence without being able to continue. He tried again. "Dear Deborah, could you tell me precisely what you feel?"
A minute or so elapsed before she replied, in a very low voice, clearly exhausted, "Like being in a big black hole."
"With no way out?" he queried.
Deborah raised her eyes slowly towards him, clearly surprised at what he had just said. "Yes. Exactly. With no way out."
"Are you able to imagine yourself trying to come out of that big black hole?"
"Trying to imagine that is an impossible feat, let alone seeing myself doing that," she retorted, still in a singularly tired tone and very low voice. Her reply made it clear to Father Wilberforce that she was being very coherent.
"What about leaving your room and going downstairs to the kitchen…Could you imagine yourself doing it?"
"Thinking about it is like imagining myself swimming across an ocean." Deborah's gaze turned downwards.
Father Wilberforce did his utmost to conceal his sadness. His eyes conveyed a sense of empathy and understanding. He was still holding Deborah's right hand softly, though he realized his hands were tense. He went on to ask her when did this acute sadness start. He then asked her about the way her sense of acute sadness evolved as the days went by.
"I understand you don't want see people, with the sole exception of your sister, Alice…"
"Well, and you, Wilberforce."
Father Wilberforce smiled.
"I don't wish to see anyone. I find I am overwhelmed by the presence of people. I feel almost suffocated," she went on to say.
Father Wilberforce thought it would be wise to leave soon. Before leaving, he asked her if she felt his presence had been too daunting. "Be candid, Deborah. You may, as I am about to leave."
"Less so than I would have expected," Father Wilberforce noticed a smirk in her face.
"So, I tell you what. If you wish I could come back tomorrow and stay with you for a short while. We can continue talking. For my part, I would be glad to do that." Father Wilberforce smiled waiting for an answer.
Deborah nodded in assent. "Is there a way out of this, Father?"
"Oh, yes, there is," he asserted.
He was right. The way out, however, turned out to be a tragic, rather than a happy one. The following day Alice came to his house, the same way she had done the day before. Only now she said to him, as she was crying, that his presence was needed to console her and her parents.
Father Wilberforce embraced Alice.
Twenty years previously the same fate had befallen the wife of William Wilberforce, as he was then known. The parents of Deborah and Alice were there to console him.
Yoav J. Tenembaum
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